A Teeny Tiny Glimpse...

This past Sunday Mr.B & I had just the teeniest glimpse of what it would feel like to find out we would be parents. As I have shared previously, I went in for my second IUI this month. We went in on Easter Monday and my nurse told me that "this will be the time it takes". Even though she was pretty confident; I was not. In fact, I was not even going to take the damn test (yes I said damn), but my doctor's office requires I take it on a certain day. Well anyhoo you might see where this is going. I took the test and yes it digitally, blatently, and surprisingly said, "pregnant". The only choices are "not pregnant" or "pregnant". I about threw up, I couldn't believe what I was seeing. I quickly snuck into the next room and pulled out the card I had bought for Mr.B 2 years ago when we started this journey. I walked in, gave him the card and told him "Congratulations, you're going to be a father." We both hugged and cried tears of joy...we couldn't believe it. FINALLY, it was happening to us!! God had heard and answered our prayers. That day we shared our very exciting news with our parents and they were equally excited as you can imagine. That night when we went to bed, we were both still in shock. Our shock wasn't near as extreme as it was on Monday. Monday morning I woke up with cramps. As I laid there I just kept thinking there was NO way I would have "cramps". I took another test, and just like that our glimpse vanished. I got a BFN. Needless to say, Mr.B & I were devasted.
I called my doctor's office and they were very supportive. They said that it was most likely a false positive. It took every ounce of me to hold it together while taking the call...in class. The doctor said that he wanted to do one more IUI this month and then proceed with the surgery. I went home that night and all I wanted to do was lay in bed and have myself a sobfest. And that is exactly what I did. I needed it so I could pick myself up and move on. While I wasn't sure if I wanted to share this or not, I am still a bit wounded and needed to get the last remaining tears out so I can focus on this month. So, that is where we stand. Please keep praying that I will be patient and that God will continue to guide our decision making process!
Cheers...because, I guess, I can still drink!

A Sweet Surprise+Good Friends=Great Memories!!

The Heidi Trolley Invitation
D-TROIT in the house!

Mr. B and his "peeps"!

The signature cocktail...White Russians!

14 years ago I went to college and didn't know anyone. Even though I was scared to death, I was very excited to go away and meet new friends. I went to CMSU the week after I graduated from H.S. and lived on a floor with some obnoxious boys. Regularly throughout the week the boys & I would head to the pool. One day, I met some girls who would become my lifelong friends. Eventually, I joined their sorority and met even more lifelong friends. Today, 10 years later, we almost all live in different cities. While there are a few of us that live in the same cities, we still find it difficult to get together. Wedding festivities and baby showers allowed us to reunite; however, those are starting to dwindle down. Last weekend one friend's new BF decided to throw her a surprise birthday party and we were all able to come in for it. While it was really a gift for her, I am pretty sure we all appreciated it. It was a fabulous time of drinks, laughs, dancing, and even more laughs.

Cheers to my BFFs!!

Sun, Fun, and Love in Mexico

One month ago today I was sitting poolside sipping on Mango Margaritas...ahhh those were the days! Mr.B & I traveled to the Riveria Maya, Mexico for my cousin, Julie's, wedding. We stayed at the Grand Sunset Princess. It was unbelievably beautiful and super relaxing. The first night we had the Bachelorette Party, the second night was the Rehearsal Dinner, and then the big day! They were married at X-Caret Park, an eco-park, in Playa de Carmen. Never in my life (my whole 32 years) have I been to a more beautiful and breath-taking wedding ceremony. The chapel they were married in sat at the top of a cliff which overlooked the ocean. The chapel was open so you could see the spectacular view from the alter. I told Jeff that if we renew our vows someday...that will be the place. To all my single ladies out there...if you are looking into destination weddings that is the place! Throughout the entire place you felt the Lord's presence and spirit. It was for sure awe-inspiring! After the wedding we enjoyed a very swanky reception back at the resort. Then Saturday-Sunday it was nothing but pool, margaritas, and beach fun:) While not all of my family could make it, I certainly enjoyed the time spent with those who could. I love that our family is so close:) We definately had many laughs by the pool!! Depending on where our situation has taken us next year, we may be back at the Sunset Princess very soon:)

Cheers to Julie & Ryan on a healthy and blessed marriage, thanks for letting us come and be a part of it!!

Oh, the Boards!

Last year I began my journey attempting to recieve National Board Certification through the National Boards Professional Teacher Standards. Boy, has it been a process!! There are two parts to this: 1. a four-part portfolio of videos & reflections on your practice and your impact on student learning 2. a 6 question essay test (you have 30 minutes to answer each question which can be over ANYthing in social studies. I turned in my portfolio last March and took my test last June. I found out in November that I did not achieve certification. The good news was that I passed the ever-so dreaded test. Seriously, that thing is a beast...so it is safe to say I was a wee proud of myself:) But still disappointed because I only passed 2 of the 4 entries. So after November I was able to re-do those two entries only and that is what I have been doing. They are due this Thursday (the 15th) and needless to say...I am a little behind (hence me blogging instead of being productive). I am having severe writers block on my reflection pieces...so I took a break thinking I would be able to think of something really good if I blogged about it. So far...not-so-much:( I think I am going to try a glass of wine...
Cheers to getting over the block...and hopefully passing this time around!!

Two Years and Counting

March 15th was my 2nd wedding anniversary! I cannot believe it has been 2 years already.

Last year for our first anniversary we went on a shopping trip and Mr.B bought me a gorgeous anniversary band for my ring. People couldn't believe that Mr. B would splurge like that for a 1st anniversary. I didn't think he could top it, until he gave me beautiful earings this year! It's safe to say that he has spoiled me...but don't tell him I said that:)

We have learned so much about each other in the past two years. Not to sound like a Hallmark card or anything...but, we have had our share of ups and downs for sure and we have made it through each one stronger than before. One of the most trying things on a relationship is infertility. Even though we have both had different thoughts throughout this ordeal, Mr.B has been there for me every step of the way. He has learned to put up with my monthly melt-downs, frustrations, guilt, and crabbiness:) I love him more and more each and every day. God has blessed me with an amazing husband! I cannot wait to see what our future has in store:)

Cheers to two years and counting!