Bitter-Sweet

Me & some of the girls

"Bitter"

"Sweet"

I know that I have really been slacking with my blogging:( I haven't forgotten about my little blog here, I have just been trying to still get in the swing of things. Even though I cut a lot of my "extra duties" out of my schedule, I have still managed to find ways to fill the void. I am most likely filling the time, because I have moments where I really miss coaching.

For those who were not aware...I was a dance team coach for the past 7 years and last year I retired:( It has been a bitter-sweet decision. Bitter in the fact that dance has somehow been a part of my life since I was a little tot and now it isn't. It was extremely sad to leave the girls and the bonds we formed. It was also sad for me to walk away from a program that I tried really hard to rebuild. There are so many things I miss about being a coach. I miss the girls who always seemed to know how to bring a smile to my face after dealing with a rowdy 7th hour, I miss getting to help girls with choreography and choosing costumes. I miss the excitement and disappointment that came along with each competition. I even miss the girls who would always seem to find those little buttons to push. :) And, since last year we went to Nationals in Disney World...I of course miss little perks like that!

My departure was sweet in the fact that this was the first summer I did not have to go to camp, the first summer I didn't have car washes, BBQ's and other fundraisers every other weekend, and the first year I didn't have to go sit in the excruciating hot sun for an all day school fundraiser. It is also sweet that every day at 2:45 I am on my way out the door to get home to Lucy-Bug. And maybe, the most sweetest part is that my phone has never been so quiet! One of the worst parts about being a coach, that I certainly don't miss, is the DRAMA! The constant parent phone calls, emails, and of course the "can I talk to you for a minute" conversations after a game following a 14 hour work day. Seriously, while I was planning my wedding and coaching 2 squads I had a parent call me on a Saturday (while out shopping for centerpieces with a friend) to complain that I wasn't putting in as much time as needed to the squad. My friend about fell off her rocker that the parent would even think of calling me...on a Saturday...to complain when her daughter wouldn't of even had a squad to dance on if I wouldn't have taken it on. Oh, those were so NOT the days! And one cannot forget the crazy amounts of paperwork which just always made my day.

I know most people are thinking...why even 2nd think your decision after all that non-sense. Well, at the end of the day...all those sweets heavily outweighed the bitter! For those who don't know why I "retired", well I was advised to cut out all stress in order to encourage the stork to make a stop at our household :)

I always told the girls to follow Bob Dylan's advise to "take care of your memories, for you cannot relive them". So as I walk by the practices each day that I used to run... I will remember Dylan's advise.

Cheers to memories!

What a week!

This has been one of the most eventful weeks I have had in a long time. It started off on Monday I had to give a presentation at work. Most people would think that with my job I would have no problem with public speaking. Well this is true but only when it comes to speaking to teenagers. I get extremely nervous when I have to speak in front of other adults and especially colleagues. Thank goodness my role was rather small & I made it through without crying:) After I made it through that fear, I would have to conquer more emotions later on at the doctors office. Most people know that I am an open book, especially with our fertility issues. I find a lot of comfort in being open about it and I usually find that I am certainly not alone. This month marked my 3rd month on chlomid and when I went to the doctor for my check-in I received my 2nd dose of profosy(sp?) some sort of shot they give. This visit was so...non-eventful. First of all I had to wait 45 minutes in the waiting room and I felt as though everyone around me was pregnant. The girl behind the desk checking me in...preggers; every chick in the waiting room...preggers; the young teenager walking out of the office with a "I am pregnant bag of goodies"...preggers. Seriously!! Anyway, I go in and my doc does the little check and says..."hmmm this is interesting"...."what exactly is interesting" I say. He says quickly as if no biggie,"last month the left side wasn't doing anything and now this month the right side isn't doing anything". Oh really, I think to myself. Hmmm that must really help my "chances". You know the same chances that he told me of getting pregnant in the first place and how slim they were. Then "why oh why doc is it that the all the chicks in the waiting room here and everywhere in the world right now somehow were able to beat those odds"? I know that God has a plan for me and I know that he is trying to teach me something in all this. I am pretty sure he is trying to teach me to 1. trust him and 2. have patience. I have always trusted him...even though I haven't understood him. However, I haven't always had patience. Most people would agree with this:) Well, lord I am seeing this and I will try to have patience and leave this in your hands!

Tuesday night things got better with our first recipe club! The theme was Mexican and all the food was dee-licous. I am so excited that all the girls seem to get along and that they were all equally excited for this new adventure:)

Wednesday we started school, which I am really looking forward to my new groups of kids. But...I had this terrible sinus infection and of course it lasted for the first couple of days. I felt bad for the kids since normally I am much more bubbly so hopefully they will have some patience with me until the more exciting me makes an appearance:) This stupid sinus ordeal turned into bronchitis and kept me from going to the Lake for a much needed and much anticipated girls weekend.:( I should have been there now, instead I am "taking it easy" hanging out with Lucy & Mr.B...which of course I am not complaining about!

Obviously I need to write more daily so I don't have such longs posts!! The reason I didn't this week was because on top of everything else, our Internet was down. Of course it was! Well, let's hope that next week is a little less eventful:)
Cheers!

Me Love Accessorizing?...Naa!

Lucy Bug's crochet flower by Mimi Green arrived! As you can tell she is just as thilled as I am! I just couldn't wait to share her pics from the photo shoot we had. Yesterday a friend at work said that I was the "most accessorized person she knows". Really....me? Naa!
Well, now I have a little partner in crime that is into accessories too:)
Cheers to accessories!

Back to School!

Well, it's official...my summer break is O-V-E-R. Have you seen the commercial of the Dad taking his kids to shop for school supplies leaping through the isles? OMG this commercial is hilarious! It's funny because that isn't exactly my emotions for school starting back up. Sure, I absolutely love my job, it's just that I think of going back to school, as missing out on my summer fun. No more days of the Today Show, no more lounging around at the pool, no more lunch dates, no more pjs until 9 am, and morning walks with Lucy are now at 6 am rather than 9 am :( Mr. B tells me that this is life for all non-teachers, and he is right. I am appreciative of the time off I had this summer. I am also really proud of myself for accomplishing almost every task on my "summer to-do" list. I still have a couple of things I can get done in the next couple weeks, but for the most part I finished it! The major projects I did was organizing our basement and all of our closets. I got rid of so much stuff that I took 4 huge bags and 2 boxes to the Goodwill. Oh, how sweet it is to feel organized! Honestly, this is one of my favorite things I did this summer. Crazy I know, but seriously I think you feel so much better once you get things organized and go through all the junk we tend to keep. It's like a really good cleansing:)
As my summer comes to an end, overall I feel like it was extremely productive. (Even though I was at the pool 80% of the time:) )
Cheers to a great summer!